going outta my mind???

I feel like lately I'm going outta my mind....or am I? I mean I did just have a baby 5 months ago so could it be the baby blues? I've spent my entire life with negative people tearing me down and trying to convince me I'm crazy and now that I'm having difficulties coping with things I can't help but hear their voices telling me I'm nuts. For the first time in as long as I can remember I'm unable to express my feelings in words and that scares me. I've never been the greatest with telling people things but I've always known how to explain what I feel inside. Now the only thing I can even begin to think is I'm going out of my mind slowly. Life feels like a person with no voice to be heard but having so much they want to say and I'm not sure wtf is causing it or if its just my mind finally having enough after all the crap I've had to go through. At any rate I feel as though I'm losing my mind and I'm a lost cause so to speak but even those words don't seem to do justice to what I'm truly feeling deep inside. The sad part is I have no clue what I'm feeling other then empty inside but bursting with emotions. *sigh* I need sleep Good nite all!